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Weekly Roundup

Sometimes I have a whole bunch of cool things to share and they don’t necessarily need a whole post. I am going to attempt to start a Weekly Roundup with those items in it. Have a great weekend!

 

{1} This post about marriage.

{2} 27 Underrated Things About Being In Your 30s

{3} Couldn’t agree more with this post on Thoughts on Parenthood from a Childless Girl

{4} 11 Life Hacks for the Emotionally Struggling 20-Something

Three Ohhh

My 30th didn’t start out great.

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Let me back up by saying that M accidentally emailed me Sept. 30. He sent a reminder for my birthday instead of an invitation when he set up his Google calendar.  So, that was fun.

See, logically I shouldn’t think about him or talk about him or miss him. I do though. I find myself saying things like “well Matt used to do X that was so funny” or something like that. When I tore him a new one emailed him around Easter, I purged everything. I was hurt to the core, and I let him know that. So why aren’t my head and heart on the same page?? That’s an excellent question. One I pray about daily.

I can deal with my feelings, but having him contact me is an entirely new level of confusing that I can’t wrap my head around. Of course all the old feelings came to surface, and I let him know. He said I mindfucked him. Because I woke up that morning knowing he’d email me..

As I was driving home from my picnic with the bestie for her birthday, I saw an email from him. My first thought was OMG STOP EMAILING ME REMINDERS!! Then I realized that it was an actual email he typed out. I read it, picked my place up a bit, got ready for bed, and then figured out my response. My response received no response, which I think hurt more than the initial email.

I woke up on my birthday confused and sad. As I was thinking about things tears streamed down my face and I began praying again. Why can he affect me this way? Why am I not over this already? What is the bigger picture here? What am I missing? PLEASE show me what all this means because I can’t take this back and forth limbo anymore. It’s very frustrating.

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I started cleaning my place up for company arriving later and took things to storage. When I took a break from all the cleaning, tears streamed down my face again. You’re not supposed to cry on your birthday! I decided I would not let it get to me and it would not ruin my birthday, especially my 30th. I’d already had one ex ruin my 21st. I began cleaning again and around that time the bestie showed up. Thank God for that angel. She brought me a mini cake and some champagne for us to toast to. I gave her a hug after she put her stuff down and she told me NO TEARS! Not anymore. I love that she gets it. She gets the tears, the anger, the frustration, the sadness, the whole picture.

After the toast we got lunch, got a mani/pedi and our hair done. What a great way to spend your 30th. Being pampered with your best friend. After getting our hair done we headed to my place to get ready for the evening. I planned a small dinner with close friends, then dancing. I have never had so many people flake out of plans in my life.

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The older I get, the more I realize who I can and cannot count on to be there for me. In the past I have allowed myself to become upset when I realized I couldn’t count on someone. I’m not sure if it’s an age thing or everything I have been through in the last year, but recently I have had the whatever attitude towards people when I realize that I can’t count on them. I tend to hold my friends to high standards. Maybe those standards aren’t necessarily fair to hold people to. Because of these high standards, I have been able to weed out the people that I don’t need in my life. I recall a convo between M and I from years ago.. He said he always thought he was a good friend, but since knowing me, he realized I was a GREAT friend to my friends and that he could be a better friend. I pride myself on that. If we have a connection and you need me, for something big or small, I am there. What ever gene that is, I’m glad I have it. I think it makes me a better person.
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I love birthdays, especially mine. I love all things that go with it, celebrating, cake, friends, dressing up, etc. I originally started out with 10 people coming to celebrate my birthday  with me. Minutes before dinner, there were not 10 people. Maybe I should gift some Emily Post books for Christmas? It was actually me, Ashley and a guy she worked with that I’ve met once. Major props to him, he barely knew me. I had two more friends that joined me afterwards that couldn’t be there for dinner due to scheduling. Where the rest of my friends were, I don’t know. The people that knew it meant a lot to me showed up, and I truly appreciate that.

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I just wanted to document my milestone birthday.. Here are some pictures from my bday.

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My office sent me flowers on Friday. They care!

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Saturday night. You can’t tell in this pic, but I figured my 30th was the perfect occasion to wear my Louboutins.

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Making fun of Ashley for how she was posing in the first pic.

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G and me

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Me and Ash

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Obligatory shot. Ugh, I’m so not a shot girl.

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G, me, Ash and Laura

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cake!

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Blowing out my candle

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I was taking a pic of Ash and my friend Nick photo bombed the pic. Hilarious.

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Laughing with Laura

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23 Things Every Woman Should Stop Doing

At times women are too hard on themselves.   I heard my morning radio station talking about things every woman should stop doing. There was a total of 23 things. Here is the list, created by Huffington Post

 

It is conventional wisdom that we’re our own worst enemies and despite the cliche, the idea rings true. We often drive ourselves insane striving for perfection in our experiences, relationships and selves, and honestly it just becomes exhausting. So here at HuffPost Women we’re issuing a challenge to ourselves — and other women — to stop doing these 23 things. (Of course it’s all easier said than done, but to employ another cliche, if at first you don’t succeed, try, try again.)

1. Apologizing all the time.

2. Saying “yes” to everyone else.

3. Saying “no” to yourself.

4. Viewing food as the enemy.

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5. Body-snarking — out loud or in your own head.

6. Feeling like an impostor when you accomplish something professionally.

7. Obsessively untagging every “unflattering” photo of you that ever existed online.

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8. Comparing your real life to someone else’s virtual one.

9. Holding on to regrets and guilt.

10. Wearing heels every day.

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11. Judging other women’s sex lives.

12. Judging your own sex life.

13. Trying to be “chill.”

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14. Fearing the label “crazy.”

15. WebMD-ing everything.

16. Worrying that your life doesn’t look like Pinterest.

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17. Fearing being alone.

18. Being in relationships for the sake of having a relationship.

19. Not taking advantage of your vacation days.

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20. Holding on to toxic friendships.

21. Spending time with people out of obligation.

22. Being embarrassed about your interests.

23. Setting deadlines for major life events.

Rules for Being Amazing

By Robin Sharma

Risk more than is required.

Learn more than is normal.

Be strong.

Show courage.

Breathe.

Excel.

Love.

Lead.

Speak your truth.

Live your values.

Laugh.

Cry.

Innovate.

Simplify.

Adore mastery.

Release mediocrity.

Aim for genius.

Stay humble.

Be kinder than expected.

Deliver more than is needed.

Exude passion.

Shatter your limits.

Transcend your fears.

Inspire others by your bigness.

Dream big but start small.

Act now.

Don’t stop.

Change the world.

Running

When I was little I was equal parts tomboy and girly girl. Over the years I seemed to have gottent rid of the tomboy part of myself. I played softball one year in middle school and I hated it. I suppose I’ve just never found anything that has kept me interested. Except gymnastics, but the whole doing a flip in the air and landing on a bar and not killing yourself really terrifies me.

As I’m nearing 30, it has become more evident that this tiny petite body I’ve always had won’t stay long if I don’t work at it. Overall I eat pretty healthy. I love all things cake and cupcakes, but in moderation. Not that I’ve noticed gravity taking place, but I want to be lean and tone. Jiggles aren’t cute. There’s no other way to say it. I’ve always been the girl that thought..

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In order to expand my horizons, my BFF decided we needed to participate in C25K. I actually agreed to do it! I figured that it would be fun to do little 5Ks in other cities. That way not only are we being all healthy and stuff, we get to travel and see different cities. It’s a win win, right? c25k

We decided a few weeks ago to actually go through with it and last night was our first night preparing. It honestly wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. At times I could feel my calves getting sore, but I wasn’t dying. I was pretty happy when it was over though. I’m a little sore today, but I was also sore from dancing over the weekend. Tonight is night 2. It’s a little scary to think that I can actually do a 5K.

My first walk/run is this weekend. My coworker’s wife asked us all to participate in an event for Lekotek. It’s a walk/run for 4 miles, so it shouldn’t be too hard. Wish me luck!

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About a month ago one of my friends I’d lost touch with contacted me. She’s one of those special people that you can spend 2 hours talking to and time seems to stand still. Abbi is one of the most incredible and uplifting people I’ve had the pleasure of knowing. She just has this gift with how she speaks to you. She and I talked a good bit when my dad was first diagnosed with cancer. When we talked one of the first nights a month ago, she told me that even though we’d lost touch she wanted me to know that she continued to pray for me.

I told her about the first dream I had about my dad, which was in his house a few days after he passed away. In my dream he pointed at me while he was smiling wide and said “We will dance.” Just having the dream itself meant so much to me. I thought that it was his special way of reaching out to me because as a child we watched Footloose and The Sound of Music a lot.  I remember seeing a picture of him when I was little of him dancing on top of a table. I get it from him, what can I say? I never really thought much else about it until I was telling Abbi about it. As we were talking about the last few moments with my dad, I mentioned to her that as I was holding his hand I told him all I’d ever wanted was for him to walk me down the aisle. Even though he couldn’t talk at that point, he squeezed my hand. At that moment I burst into tears. It meant so much to me that what I said to him meant something to him as well, and that he understood what I said. Less than 10 minutes later, he was gone.

Abbi told she was absolutely sure that my dream was him telling me that we would dance at my wedding. I think that hit me so hard I didn’t really know how to react until a day later when I cried because it meant so much and I was positive she was right.

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Isn’t it funny how things like that happen? That’s God doing his magic right there. There was such a feeling of peace that came over me after it finally hit me.

It’s hard to believe it’s been one year.

Dad I think about you every day. Most of the time I think about funny stories about you, or funny things you did, even things you would do and I would be so embarrassed about. I completely understand them now, because I am you almost to a T. (ha! T. His name begins with a T.) I am proud that I get 90% of my personality from you. Sometimes I long for the relationship we could have had, but I am happy that we were able to make up for lost time in 7 days. I love seeing you in my dreams, that will never get old. I had the fear of not remembering your laugh or your “hey” when you answered the phone. I hope those are things I never forget. I still hear your voice as clear as day when I think about you, and for that I am so grateful. I love you!

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A friend of mine sent me this last week and it hit me like a ton of bricks stuck with me. HELLO that’s why it hasn’t worked out with anyone so far – they didn’t fit with me like a puzzle piece. I needed to completely change how I was praying.

 

These are great points to remember as we wait for the man God brings to us and seek discernment in dating….
 
 
Is HE the ONE? THE RIGHT ONE
 
First we must allow our Heavenly Father to do the picking. And second, the decision for a mate must be made on a spiritual and intellectual basis before it’s made on an emotional one.
 
“What about love? Shouldn’t that be the third?” you ask. No, and I’ll tell you why. “The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?” (Jeremiah 17:9).
 
The heart is willful and is driven by its own agenda. It does not consider things rationally and intelligently it just loves to love! Therefore you have to point it in the right direction: “Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the well spring of life.” (Proverbs 4:23)!
 
Whenever you meet a man, you need to get clearance from God, check out his attributes, and then allow your heart to engage.
 
Dating exists not for mating; it exists for collecting data. I believe that the biblical design would be friendship, courtship and then marriage.
 
Friendship is two people walking together in agreement and accountability, learning and growing together.
 
Courtship follows the mutual agreement to commit to one another exclusively – it is the decisive turning toward the agreed-upon goal of the marriage altar. It is a period of laying a foundation and preparing your life together after marriage.
 
But dating? Well, if you do date, use the time wisely to gather these facts..
 
1. Check out the fabric. Is the person mate material? Does this man have an intimate relationship with the Father through Jesus Christ? Does he care what God thinks about his behavior? Is he accountable to God as well as another co-laborer in the faith? Accountability is an important factor. It is imperative to maintaining a committed relationship. Is your potential spouse a member of the same family – the family of God?
 
You need to have common interests and values and agree on the essentials of living day to day. You have a similar spiritual walk. You eat the same spiritual diet. You enjoy a lot of similar things. You have like interests, like goals in life, like opinions on basic life issues.
 
You have had like experiences in your background. Though there is some truth to the idiom that opposites attract, like-minded folks fare better together.
 
Furthermore, does he want to get married? If you want to be married and your dreamboat isn’t interested, don’t waste your time.
 
Remember, women fall in love and get married. Men decide to get married and then look for a wife. Note the difference in order. So if a guy says he’s not looking for anything serious, take his words seriously. If he’s not going in your direction, get off the bus and wait for the right one.
 
2. Does this man want you? Is he pursuing you? The man who is right for you will pursue you, and God’s hand in the relationship will be clear. No guessing, no fleeces, no dead ends.
 
Scripture says: “He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the Lord” (Proverbs 18:22).
 
Note -who finds whom? THE MAN FINDS THE WIFE. From the beginning of time, God has transported men and women across the world in order to put them together.
 
At the RIGHT TIME, He will bring that man on the scene and he will find you.. In God’s perfect design, the man is the one who recognizes his mate. Adam had no problem recognizing that Eve was his missing rib. You do not need to strategically place yourself anywhere. You don’t have to help a guy out because he’s shy!
 
Men will do whatever they have to do to get what they truly want. The man in your life should recognize you as the pearl of great price in his life and be willing to do whatever he must in order to gain your hand. If he is passive about gaining your affections, take it as a sign that he is not interested.
 
Many a woman’s mother has suggested that it is a good idea to marry a man who loves you more than you love him. As cold as that sounds, it actually might be scriptural if you stop to think about it: “We love him because he first loved us” (1 John 4:19). Until then, take the ultimate chill pill . You don’t need a bunch of men in your life to make you feel all right about yourself.
 
You need only one man – your man, the one God has selected to select you. And trust me, the right man at the wrong time can be just as awful as the wrong man at any time. So trust God’s timing in this. He is the ultimate matchmaker. Relax, sit pretty and allow yourself to be found. Again – WAIT until the man voices his intentions. He should take the lead in establishing the relationship. You may have an inkling that he is the one, but God will use the man to set the tone of the relationship. Allow him the opportunity to woo you – this is your first act of submission. Jesus set the standard for all men to follow. They should love us first. And they should lead the relationship.
 
3. The man in your life should not desire to move into your house, only into your heart . A man who prepares for your future has made his intentions clear. A man who is husband material has the means to take care of a wife. He is a responsible human being who understands he needs to have something to offer. In short, a man should have the means to be a suitable lover for you.
 
4. Check out his buddies. Everyone knows birds of the same feather flock together, yet most women fail to see the connection between a man and his friends. A man’s pals tell you a lot about the person that you haven’t seen yet. They reveal things about the guy’s character that might be hidden when he is on good behavior. Everyone knows how to put his best foot forward. Don’t stay focused on the foot, check out the rest of the body!
 
5. Check out his relationship with his mother. How does he treat her? This is your preview of how he will treat you. There are lots of men who, because of a negative relationship with their mothers, really don’t like women, yet say they do. Unresolved issues between mother and son continue between husband and wife.
 
6. Remember that a man’s family reveals the cloth from which he’s cut. Take note and decide whether you want your future with the man in your life to look like his present family situation.
 
7. Check out the patterns of his life. Do you see repeated cycles of drama in his personal kingdom? Broken relationships? Problems in making commitments –including the job market? Mood swings? Is a problem always someone else’s fault? Does he embrace responsibility or shirk it? Does he keep his promises? Is he a man of good reputation? Remember all garments look wonderful hanging in the store, but with wear, some begin to unravel. Give yourself time and space to check out the man in your life. Time will always reveal whether or not he is made of the right stuff.
 
8. Does this man have a vision for his life? Is he running with that vision? Remember, God decided Adam needed help once Adam got busy DOING his assignment. As we saw Adam, a man doesn’t need help until he is busy doing what he was created and called to do. Is the man in your life guided by sense of destiny and purpose, or does he just allow life to happen around him? A man who is not certain of his mission can be a most miserable person – and you’ll be miserable too if you know where YOU want to go in life.
 
A man who has vision is not intimidated by a woman whose mission statement is clear. He will be your best ally, cheerleader and assistant because he wants you both to make it! A man who cannot be supportive of your achievements because he is floundering in a sea of uncertainty over his own life is not a healthy partner to have and to hold forever.
 
Creating dependencies or feelings of obligation is not the way to get the best out of your man. Somewhere along the way, he will resent you and flee from the smothering burden of obligation he associates you with. You want a man who is firmly anchored in his identity in Christ. Remember, we are looking for a man who will be priest and leader of his home. His first instinct should be to want to cover you, redeem you, and provide for you. Your job is to decide if this is the man God has ordained for you to complement.
 
9. Complimentary. Do your talents and gifts complement his? Do his gifts, compliment yours? What about your temperaments? Do you see the two of you as an effective team capable of bringing blessing to the lives of those around you? Do your futures mesh? Can you coordinate your gifts in an attractive and effective way?
 
This is why knowing your purpose is so important. Make sure your hearts beat for mutual causes. When I go shopping I always consider the fabric, the fit and what I already have in my closet. Will my next purchase be a complimentary addition to what I already have? If I find that I am going to have to buy shoes and matching accessories to go with a new outfit, I leave it right on the rack. It is too expensive a proposition. If the man you meet makes you feel that you need to completely reinvent yourself, something is wrong.
 
This is where I ask you to consider the relationship in terms of cost. Is this relationship expensive spiritually, emotional or physically? Does your longing for a mate make you willing to forfeit who you are in the process? Or does he see you as the gift that you are? The man in your life should consider you a rare find, a priceless jewel-because of you he is getting ready to get blessed big-time! Any relationship that causes you to feel unworthy, unlovely, unacceptable, undesirable or that you have to work for love, is too expensive!
 
God has called the man to cover, protect and provide not only materially for a woman, but emotionally and spiritually as well. You should be richer in mind, body and spirit for your union with the man of your dreams. The man in your life should make rich deposits into your heart and spirit, not withdrawals.
 
10. Does he have a healthy love and acceptance of himself? Make sure the man in your life has taken time to heal from past relationships and has made peace with himself. How he cares for himself is how he will care for you.  A man’s relationship with God is crucial here. His love for himself will only be as strong as his love for God. This is not something that you can impart. You cannot be his savior or teacher. That is out of spiritual order. In his rightful place as your personal priest, he should be leading you to a richer relationship with Christ.
 
If he is causing you to compromise your faith and destabilize your walk, if he is leading you into sexual sin or causing you to be distracted from your commitment to God, the relationship is too expensive. Offending the Lover of your soul, who promises you eternal love, is too high a fare to pay for a ride that has a limited run. If you and your man can’t soar in the Spirit, when the force of your love for another is tested by the pull or gravity of the world, your union will not be able to survive.
 
So you decide. How much is your life worth? How much is your love worth? You will be able to accept only what you believe you deserve. God himself calculated the worth of your love and decided it was worth His life. He now pledges you His love for eternity. Yes, Jesus sets the example for all others to follow when He paid a ransom for His bride. Should you expect less from a mortal man? Throughout the Biblical age, men were willing to pay the cost for what they truly desired. The truth of the matter is everyone knows that anything worth having, costs and no one gets a ride in this life for free.
 
Our prayer:

Dear Heavenly Father God,

I confess that I have not always been as careful as I should’ve been with my heart. From time to time, my desire for love has caused me to leave my heart in the wrong hands. I now commit my heart into Your hands for safekeeping. Please help me to stop being so impulsive with what you deem so precious. As I learn to celebrate Your love for me, let me learn from Your example what a bridegroom should really be like. Help me to never settle for less than what you desire for me. As I embrace You as the Lover of my soul, keep my affections in the haven of Your own heart. As I rest in Your love, make me more discriminating of those who approach me.

I ask that You take over this area of my life. Keep me from those You know would hurt my heart. I invite You to set a hedge around me and keep me from all who would draw me into unfruitful relationships until the day you present me to the mate that You have selected for me. Grant me the discernment to recognize him as he recognizes me. Cleanse me from the temptation to typecast the men I meet according to what I see. Help me to trust in Your knowledge and lean not on my own understanding. I know that You know what is best for me; therefore I yield to Your choice. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.
 
Ladies this is something you should definitely share with a friend, whether you are single or married… It is something to think about, When you ask is “He” the one!

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Within the past month or longer I have had trouble sleeping. I love sleep and it loves me right back. To say that I’m not happy I can’t sleep through the night is an understatement. Sure I’ll wake up to pee or take B out to pee – and even then I get annoyed – but I’ve never had trouble falling asleep again.

I will wake up several times throughout the night and if my back is to my door, I have to turn over. I can see my front door from my bed, and I have to stare at it before I go back to sleep. Why, I have no idea. It’s like I’m afraid someone will break in. Which is kind of redic – all outside doors lock and you have to have a key to get in the building.

Sometimes Most of the time I am terrified I will see my dad in my place. Creepy, right? It’s true though. I strictly told him I didn’t want to see him. (I’m totally aware I sound like I need to be committed). He was a big jokester, so who knows. I was always the type of person to think ghosts/spirits were not real…until he passed away. Also, one of my BFFs mother’s died in 1997 and she has told me that at times she can feel her mom’s presence in her house. I think you tend to give more cred when you actually know someone that has gone through this, versus hearing about it from a stranger. At least I do.

At 5:30 this morning I woke up from a dream that was all too real. I had a vivid dream of how the world was going to end. Let’s just say that at 5:30am I was seriously contemplating on getting up and starting my day. It freaked me out enough to start looking for a psychologist. I need someone to help me make sense of all this and more importantly – to start sleeping better! Prayers!

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March Bucket List Completions

Go to the movies alone

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Have drinks at the St. Regis

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Eat at Tomo

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Makeover

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 The flooring went in! Carpet is long gone. She looks so pretty!

 

 

 

 

Thoughts and Prayers

I do my best praying and thinking in the shower. Depending on my day, I take a shower in the morning and one at night. Tonight after working out, I started thinking about God and why things are the way they are. Let me see if I can word this..

There’s a particular situation that I absolutely do not understand. Most of what I don’t understand are the feelings that I have. Do we actually have control over our feelings though? Which is probably the main problem. I am a control freak. I can’t do anything about the situation and it’s in the past. It hurts and makes me sad. All I have are the make-me-want-to-vomit feelings. Literally sick to my stomach. WHY? I don’t want to. I want to not care. Yet I do. A lot.

In the shower I started thinking, that’s your problem. HELLO! You’re a control freak. You need to let go and let God. Only, where and how do you begin? How do you change the pattern? Which lead me to thinking, why didn’t God make it easy? On the flip side, if he made us all perfect, what would the point of everything be? Everything as in, life, Jesus dying for us.. Why can’t we all just be happy and healthy and worship Him? That probably sounds really stupid but that was really my thought process. Can you tell that even when I’m praying I seem to get side-tracked?

I’m not sure if it’s my age or what, but I’ve started feeling ..empty. I think maybe that’s the best way to word my feelings. I’ve started to realize that just praying is not cutting it. I’ve actually read a few blogs in particular (Bloom, The Little Things We Do, and Butler: Party of 2)  that made me think, wow they are so into their relationship with God and you can tell. That’s definitely something that just praying is not doing for me. I downloaded the YouVersion Bible App that Kerri mentioned in her post. I think this should help me tremendously. I think that daily devotion is a good start for me.  It’s not fair for me to ask God to bless me with all these things that I want in the future (husband, family, etc) and only interact with Him through prayer. I figure I have absolutely nothing to lose. I mean, I want to feel joy too! That’s the one I am starting with – A Jolt of Joy. There are several others that caught my eye, but I think for now I need to stick to doing just one.

Happy Birthday Dad!

Happy birthday!!! I’m thinking of you, especially today.  I made your favorite cake in your memory.

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Hope you are dancing today!

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 I love you!!! 

 

To understand this post, read this.

TBT

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My friends Kory, Mollie and me at the Braves game. Circa 2006 I believe. I just found out last night that Mollie is prego with her first! So happy for her. Actually, Kory and his gf are prego too! I’m glad I’m not in those shoes! haha

Vacation Bug

It’s safe to say that the vacation bug has officially hit me. Only, the vacation I’m planning isn’t until October. What can I say, I like to know details. See, it’s kind of a big deal. It will be my 30th birthday! My bestie’s birthday is the day before mine so we are going on vacation together. Since I’m all about knocking things off my bucket list, we haven’t really decided on where to go yet. There are so many things to factor in! Do we want to rent a place, or stay in a hotel? How many people are going with us? Right now, we are thinking about 3 possible vaction locations..

Virgin Islands – St. Croix

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Cancun, Mexico

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or go on a cruise

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Honestly, you can pretty much put me in sand and water and I’ll be happy! I’m a little nervous about the cruise idea – they haven’t had a good rep the last couple of years. I’m hoping we can take advantage of a free place in Mexico. Either way, I’m  so excited!!

February Bucket List Completions

Weelllll I slacked this month. I have been slammed with work and so tired that I just really didn’t feel like doing much. I’ve been so busy with work, the guys decided to reward me, which was nice!! I had a few things going on in my personal life too, so I went to the doctor and we changed up some meds. I’m back on for March!

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Fundraising for the Breast Cancer 3 Day in Athens!

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Effing Disney

Why is it that we, either as women or our generation, seem to be so eager to fall in love?

Some times I look back at all the men I said I love you to, and I think, “did I really?”. Perhaps it’s my ability to forget the past? As in, when someone is out of my life, I generally tend to forget about them. Think Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, if you will. I can easily do it with women, but have a little more difficulty when it comes to men. I have been trying to pinpoint something in my life that has made me this way, and yet I can’t seem to come up with anything. I don’t think it’s because my parents separated when I was little – we left him! I honestly have no idea what it is about me that makes it so easy for me to “move on”. I put that in quotes because even if I haven’t fully moved on, I still think about that person from time to time. Never usually contact that person though. Is it just a strong will? I think maybe it’s because I am very black and white on my views? Either way, I feel like it’s something I need to work on.

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I think maybe we are so eager to be in love because of Disney. Ha! Kind of serious about that though. At the end of every Disney story, the guy and girl end up together and live happily ever after. We are taught that’s how it is.

Is love “like that” even real? Yes I did question that. Actually while I was talking to my bestie, she asked that. I know exactly where she’s coming from though, and I believe it is. Like I’ve stated before, my other bestie’s parents met and 2 weeks later they were married. 30 something years later, they are still married and more in love than ever. So, yes, I think that it can happen. All these people can’t just be making it up, right?

I know that it takes time. I do. If you think about it, it’s actually super hard to meet The One. You may love their personality but you may not have the same beliefs. Or you could have the same beliefs but not communicate well. You may have everything on the same level that meshes well together, but not priorities in life. It literally takes a perfect blend to be able to make it, I think.

 

As a side note – or random note – I was having a conversation with some friends at a bar a few weeks ago. One of the guys said, “You don’t have sex with someone because of their looks. You have sex with someone because of their brain”. One of my friends disagreed with that statement. I however, totally agree. Sure you may initially have sex with someone because of their looks. But, their good looks aren’t going to keep you. Looks fade anyway. If they are bad in bed – which is all brain work – then you’ll leave. It’s so true! You keep dating someone because of their brain. Crazy that I’ve never thought about it like that before.

Ohhhh Atlanta, why do you have to be so Russian Rouletteish when it comes to men? #fail

Such a deep post for a Friday night. Oopsies!

Buckhead Starbucks Serving Wine

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Say what?! Two of my favorite things in one place? Yep! While flipping through Simply Buckhead I came across an article that said exactly that! The West Paces Ferry location is one of the first stores worldwide to offer a new “Evenings” menu. The menu consists of gourmet bites and alcoholic drinks. They say it was chosen because of its location and flexible seating options that accommodate larger groups.

I can see why they picked that location. If you don’t know much about Atlanta, West Paces Ferry is where all of the high-end real estate is located. It’s even home to the Governor’s Mansion.

 

Sugar Gel Hair Removal?

I came across an ad for sugar gel hair removal in Simply Buckhead magazine while picking up cupcakes for a friend. The sugar gel hair removal part caught my eye.. Check out their website, they even have a cute little Buckhead theme song! “The Beverly Hills of the East”.

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Unique Threading & Body Waxing is the only place in Atlanta to offer sugar gel hair removal. It’s a form of hair removal that is similar to waxing, but its much more gentle and less painful (so they say) to endure, and it also requires a higher level of skill to perform. They offer a Brazilian wax at $30 and eyebrow threading at $8.

Specializing In:

  • Eyebrow threading
  • Brazilian body waxing
  • Herbal facials
  • Henna tattoos
  • Sugar gel waxing

Check out their website for more info.

January Bucket List Completions

1. Ice skating at Centennial Park

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2. Snow Mountain at Stone Mountain

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3. Hike Stone Mountain

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Just kidding, we took the Sky Lift up

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Mini mes. I told Sara that watching after these two girls would be earily similar to how it will be when we have kids. Yikes!

Looking forward to marking off more things on my bucket list in February!

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So many wonderful changes going on in my life right now that I am super excited about. So blessed!!!!

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Tattoo Removal: Session 1

Back in October I bought a Living Social deal for laser tattoo removal. It expires in April so I figured I should suck it up and get my first session out of the way. Today was my first appointment. I wasn’t sure what to expect other than pain.

About a month ago, I was getting a facial and I mentioned to my friend that I wanted a small sun spot removed. She told me she could zap it and that it would go away. I thought, okay what the hell.. lets do it! Well, thank God I only had one and it was small. What she called a “zap” felt more like electricity on my face. ON. MY. FACE. I yelled. I jumped and screamed from the shock (literally) of pain. After that, I can say that I absolutely will not be visiting any tanning beds and that I will bathe in sun screen from now on. It’s not like I get dark any way. Dang fair skin.

Once in the back room at the laser center, my tech put a cold pack on my lower back and told me she would be back in a few minutes. I didn’t really feel like the pack was super cold, so I pressed it onto my skin for the time period she was gone. Before she came in the room my skin almost felt like it was burning and it was very red from the cold. I figured that should work because I knew I wanted it to be as painless as possible. I asked her what kind of pain I was going to experience due to my “skin zap” ordeal. I wanted to know how much pain and what it would feel like. She told me that it had been described to her as grease popping on your skin when you are cooking.

Grease. Popping. On. Skin.

In the area where your tattoo is located. For about a full minute or two, depending on how much space your tattoo takes up. Yeah. I would say that grease popping on your skin repeatedly for one – two full minutes is very accurate. Ho. Ly. Mother of baby Jesus. That machine is the real deal. Luckily for me my tattoo is small and since I’ve had it for 10 years, it has faded a lot. The tech told me she thought I would only need 3, maybe 4 more laser sessions. Thank God! Luckily I have another 4-6 weeks to allow my skin to blister/itch/flake before I submit myself to pain again. I’ll post pictures throughout the process if you’re interested.

Don’t Call it a Comeback

It’s funny when you review old posts and you think to yourself…

YES!

I was SO sure of everything. Myself. My decision. My faith that I was doing the right thing.

What happened to that girl? Why didn’t she listen to her head? How did I get to where I am now? Why didn’t I stick to my guns? Funny how things seem so much more clear after time.

See also, Break.

Sometimes, I think it takes you falling to your knees to be able to stand up tall. At least for me this is true.

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You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could’ve, would’ve happened …. or you can leave the pieces on the floor and move on.

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Trouble Trouble Trouble

This week has been interesting, to say the least.

A friend of mine confided in me thoughts of suicide. That alone was enough to stop me in my tracks. There were other things shared that day too. It’s a tough spot to be in. There are all these questions..what do I do, do I tell anyone, obviously I need to pray, how do I help, can I help, if I don’t tell anyone and this person doesn’t do anything about it how will I feel if somethings happens, do I get parents involved? The only solution I have come up with is to be there, and to say prayers.

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Dealing with my dad’s stuff is never fun. It’s even less fun when my sister calls me at work yelling because she isn’t smart enough can’t figure out what to do in a particular situation. Very frustraiting because #1 I am trying to work #2 yelling is NOT going to help. Which is why…..

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I sent that to Sara and Ashley yesterday. Sara’s response was “That’s how {insert her last name}’s see it!! You ARE family! Ashley’s response was “Awe! Thanks for being my sis!” 🙂

Earlier in the month I text Sara’s mom to tell her and her husband thank you for my Christmas gifts. I received the sweetest text. My heart literally smiled.

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I am SO blessed to have them in my life!!!

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