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March Bucket List Completions

Got to a Hawks game

Even though I have already bought a car (mostly by myself), this is my first car purchase/nightmare that was done allllllll alone. I like to think of it as my dad’s birthday present this year, instead of a cupcake. You’re looking at my new baby, Blakely. Named after the city my dad is from. She’s a 2017 Honda Accord Sedan EX-L. Here she is in all her glory. Insert smiley face with heart eyes.

New York in May

So, life happened. A lot. I went to NYC in May for a short trip. I adore friends that want to travel. It’s so nice to have friends that are interested in seeing the world and will follow through! Unfortunately it rained the day I was leaving and I wasn’t able to do too much. Then all flights were delayed. I finally got on a plane to go to Boston around 9PM and stayed overnight. Took another plane from Boston around 5AM to Charlotte, NC then to Atlanta. It was a long day with little sleep. Here are pics from my trip.

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Times Square

Rooftop bars in NYC on Cinco de Mayo..amazeballs.

loved this place and they had great music!

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Rainy day in NYC

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Central Park

Finally leaving NYC

Helloooo Boston

My sweet room I found on Hotel Tonight

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Peace out Boston

sunrise in Charlotte

Adele

Adele was AMAZING!!!

 

October Bucket List Completions

Taping of The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon!!! HOLY SHITBALLS

Adele

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Hello From the Outside

Holy fucking shit. I think I wrote about Adele’s “Hello” when it first came out.

July 8th I was checking my VM. My ENT’s office called and left me a VM. Apparently even if you block a number they can still leave you a VM. So I saw “Blocked Messages    1 >”. I have very few numbers blocked; I think only random people I’m too stupid to give a fake number to, and M. Upon seeing the number, I knew it was from M. He called June 18 at 9:17AM. The day before Father’s Day was the first thing that stuck out in my head, not sure why. There was nothing to the VM, just a tv in the background, and then breathing right before hanging up. Obvi it wasn’t a pocket dial, even though he would later claim it was. I don’t think so, bud. Its virtually impossible to do that nowadays.

I brought up returning his call to one of my GFs and she suggested I reach out and see what it was about. Natch, I did because, have you met met? The most curious person, almost, ever. He was shocked to say the least. We “caught up”. What you can catch someone up on in your life when you haven’t talked in over a year. I think he told me he would call me later to catch up.. Somehow I knew he’d call me back after his dinner. He did and we “caught up” more. He told me there were a few things he wanted to tell me. I knew exactly what that meant. I was very blunt the last time we talked/I texted him. I believe before we hung up he said he’d call later in the week. Obvi that didn’t happen.

I actually reconnected with a guy 2 days later. So random. Then the anniversary of my dad’s passing day came. He finally called one Sunday morning either at the end of that week or the following, at 1AMish. I was cleaning out my closet (hello irony) and texting with the boy and an old coworker. I decided to answer. I could tell by his voice something wasn’t quite right. He asked me to pick him up and my first thought was, oh fuck, he’s in jail.” Nope, just at a bar?! He said he needed a friend, and I’m a sucker, so I picked him up, and he knew I would because I’m such a great friend/person.

On the ride to my place (not many places are open at 1:45AM) I was asking WTF was happening, why he needed a friend, etc. And he bombs me with he was engaged and he/she/they called it off on Saturday. Insert my calm face on the outside, and my WHAT THE FUCKING SHIT ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME WHY THE FUCK AM I THE PICK ME UP CALL?! Yes those are not complete sentences because my brain was all over the place.

So we talked it out, what little he wanted to talk out. Which consisted of him mostly wanting to hear about me and what was going on in my life.

He did tell me a few things I needed to hear for “closure”. Like how he regretted several things, like never telling me he loved me, not being there for me for my dad’s death, etc. My favorite i think, was that I was the best sex he’d ever had. hahahahaha DUH. Because you actually fell for me. I pointedly asked him why he never told me he loved me. He looked me directly in the eyes and told me he was a coward. Okay, that takes some balls to say that. Or alcohol. Either way, I give him props for finally admitting it.

Like the good friend person I am, I steered the convo back to his issue. To help him, I asked if he thought this was “it”, it was over, for good. He said something about her taking her ring off and leaving it on the table (I think it was table?) was “like a line in the sand”. I asked if he was positive, and if he was sure he wasn’t being too hard on her, because there were plenty of times he did that to me – stubborn asshole because his feelings were hurt without communicating with her and talking things out. God, I’m such a good ex gf! Around 4AM he took his shirt and shorts off and asked if he could sleep over on my couch. Didn’t leave me much choice did ya? I said yes, gave him a pillow and blanket and offered to charge his phone bc I knew it was either dead or almost dead.

At 7:30AM I woke up to his phone vibrating the fuck out of my makeup table. Annoying. So I got up, peed, took him his phone and told him she had called several times. I think he peed and crawled in bed with me. We cuddled (hey, fuck off I’m human) and talked more about his situation. Definitely did not sleep together or make out, and he left.

We caught up later the following week and I told him I couldn’t be his friend. That was one of the things he mentioned in our convo at 3AM. I told him that he couldn’t look to me to be the first one he told about things, that’s what his fiance/wife/person is for. Not me. Whomever he decided to spend his life with needed to be that person, that I couldn’t do it. It wouldn’t be fair to me. He sounded really sad and said he figured and understood. Super awkward hanging up. Hows that convo supposed to go? “Hi, I can’t be your friend or in your life, have a nice life!” Oh and I mentioned that I was really excited with the possibility of where things were going with this new(ish) guy. Side note: that only lasted a month. Leave it to me to get tired of someone after a month. Ha. In the words of Rihanna, “Didn’t they tell you I was a savage?”

After hanging up with M, I felt like he was wavering on getting back together with his ex. Whether or not he did, I have no idea. I just think that based on the little I know, the things he told me and him turning to me, means he’s not as “in it” as he thought he was. I also told him I found it puzzling that he would want closure with me after proposing to someone. #justsayin

So tonight I had a phone call with the medium I have seen before. Not for any particular reason. She actually brought M up though. She said I finally let go of that situation. It was not good for me. She said specific things, but I can’t remember them now. I’d have to go back and listen to the recording.

We talked about my dad, because we always do at some point. She said, you like butterflies don’t you? I laughed and was like yes. She said he sends me signs and sent me one in butterfly form recently. I laughed because he did. She said butterflies normally aren’t that clumsy, it was a sign. (I was at a friends pool sitting on the edge with her. A butterfly literally flew into my face. I pulled away like, wtf and asked her if she saw it. She said yea, its a sign from your dad. I was like I KNOW!) I told the medium I feel like my dad sends me signs a lot, mostly through songs. She said he did.

After our call, I went to the store, ate dinner, watched tv and gathered the materials I need to write an essay for a paper. I decided to put on some music and decided I wanted to hear Adele. I played most of the songs from her 21 album and sang along. 25 started playing after that and Hello came on. I just listened to it instead of singing along for some reason. The further into the song I had a lightbulb moment. I literally said out loud, HOLY FUCKING SHIT THIS IS SOOOOOO US. Me and M. I originally thought that when I heard the song the firs time, but especially after hearing it after he and I talked in person. So crazy, this life.

You go listen to the song, reread what I said about our convo and tell me that shit doesn’t give you chills. #craycray

Halloween

I have been meaning to post this but things have been hectic.

The night before Halloween I was at dinner with a friend when I got a text from a guy I went to high school with. He asked me to go to a charity event for Big Boi. Of course I said yes. Stankonia made my high school experience. It turns out my friend is a sound engineer for Outkast.

I’ve always believe in the Golden Rule, and thank God. Being nice to everyone, from the jock to the band nerd, pays off. It really paid off because this guy and I weren’t really friends, but my high school wasn’t huge and we knew one another. He spends a lot of time in LA and doesn’t know a lot of people in Atlanta, so he asked me to go. Pretty sweet deal. I talked my friend I was having dinner with into going. Here are some pics.

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ken and me

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Big boi

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There was some huge swing there so we took pics.

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joking around

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if you don’t find this picture funny you have no sense of humor.

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I love cards against humanity!

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more cards. brilliant idea!

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Hashtag! Just kidding, it could have been, but I didn’t ask. I just wanted a pic.

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As you may have guessed, I went as a Dominatrix. I like to think outside of the box and I really just thought the outfit was hot when I bought it a few years ago. I had no other creative ideas for it. It’s funny though because I bruise easily and had several bruises on my legs. I’m either a klutz or I have started sleep walking. I joked saying it was an occupational hazard.

The links below are clips from a performance Big Boi did that I MISSED! Still pissed about that.

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Tattoo Removal: Session 2

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Quitting

Thursday was blissful. It was my first official day of not being employed by a company I’d worked at for almost 8 years. All of my close friends are probably more happy than me. They don’t have to hear me cry and complain and torture myself anymore. It was like Mel Gibson in Braveheart: “FREEEEEEEEEEEEDOOOOOOOOOM!!!”

Sometimes it blows me away when God answers my prayers. He doesn’t always answer in the way I prefer and then sometimes He goes above and beyond. He really outdid himself with my new job. It started out with me not really wanting to go to the interview, and before the interview was over, I wanted it. Everything aligned so perfectly it was like He created it specifically for me. The company exceeded my expectations and I was teary-eyed. What a showoff. 😉

In the middle of my search, LinkedIn kept sending random emails along with people that wanted to connect to me. The two below were interesting reads.

Weekly Roundup and Random Things

Check out this post: My boobs don’t need your husband to see them: or, you probably think this pic is about you. The author of the original post is just an idiot. An insecure idiot. And their are other idiot women that agree with her. Wow. No words.

Along those same lines, I found this post, 27 times porn lied to us about sex in the real world, rather funny.

SO glad I found this post, Dear Men: This Is Why Women Have Every Right To Be Disgusted With Us, because yessssss, this is the shit women deal with!!!

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I saw this on Lauren’s blog and thought I’d do it as well.

32 things that make me happy


1. laughing
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2. My fur baby
 
3. friends
 
4. Brunch
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5. Spring and summer

6. sleeping in
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7. Scandal
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8. finding funny pictures
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9. when i fill in my eyebrows perfectly. yes, im that vain.
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10. new makeup
 
11. facials, mani/pedi, massages. There’s just something about being pampered and rubbed that I really enjoy.
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12. Guac
 
13.  relaxing at the pool
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14. days off work!

15. fireworks
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16. Fresh flowers
 
17. when i wake up in a good mood

18. feeling skinny
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19. being productive
 
20. making lists 🙂
 
21. Chick-fil-a
 
22. Sparkles. 
If it shines, I want it. 
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23. The beach.
The smell, the feel, the warmth.
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24. adventure
 
25. men that wear cologne.
One of my neighbors seems to rarely be home. When he is, I can tell because he leaves a trace of cologne behind. ahhhh! I dont know him at all, but that smell.
 
26. freshly shaven everything.
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27. orgasms.
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28. Cupcakes.
Mine all mine. Not yours.
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29. Traveling.
 
30. completing things on my bucket list
 
31. Candles.
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32. facial scruff
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Stream of Consciousness

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Love that!

 

About a week or so ago I ordered Cards Against Humanity off Amazon. I had heard so many good things about this game. Mostly how funny it was. I thought I needed in on it. SO glad I purchased it. It literally is the best game ever! Check out the rules.

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The bestie and I have been talking about doing a cleanse. We were googling a few things and I came across this hilarious post on why juice cleanses are terrible.

 

You know what I hate? When you’re obviously interested in someone and they act coy. Thank God I have friends that tell me things like, “he should realize that he is damn lucky to have someone like you interested in him..”

Braves Opening Night ’14

Several weeks ago I went with friends to the Braves home opener. We had so much fun. It was a little chilly but otherwise the weather was perfect. We had the best burgers while there! Here are some pics..

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As we were trying to find our car, I noticed a dude passed out asleep on the bed of his truck. So funny! I know a ton of people that take off work the day of the opening game to tailgate all day, so I am sure this dude did that too. Too bad he completely missed the game.

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Weekly Roundup

Weekly Roundup

After getting on his daughter’s computer, this dad writes this letter. I think more dads should be like this man.

13 ways to know you’re dating a grown-ass man.

13 ways to know you’re dating a high-quality woman.

15 things you didn’t know your iPhone could do.

This video makes me want to have all. the. dogs.

I’m not an AC/DC fan, but the fact that this can be done with a cello is amazing.

HOLY MELTDOWN! This little boy’s reaction to a gender reveal is funny. “It’s always girls, girls girls. I hate girls. No more girls.”

Tell me all the bad words you know..

I read in Cosmo that there actually is a reason we say we want to eat babies. A newborn’s scent triggers an area of the brain that releases dopamine, the same hormone that lights up when you eat, according to a study from the Technical University of Dresden.

What Are You Looking For?

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One thing I love about blogging is that I can see different types of stats on what draws people to this little old blog. There’s a program that allows you to find out: what search engine visitors are coming from, what phrase or word were typed in, their IP address, number of visitors for a particular month, what page was visited, what day, how long the visitor was on each page, what country they are from (what up people from China [it came in at #2]), operating system, where the visitor connected from, etc. Cool, right? Here are some things I found interesting..

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Key phrases used on search engines:

  • oct 2013 why do men stare at your boobs
  • rules.for.being amazing
  • my ex is a prick
  • latte colored shoes shoe glitter spray
  • vimeo videos women models in garter belts and stockings
  • pics of clothing stores and heels a transgender can shop in northern ky
  • helicopter ride to sweetwater brewery
  • brush mac short shader 214
  • male yorkie shaved hair 6 months
  • sole matters life in heels blog
  • changed supernaturally and put into a dress and heels for sexual fun

How in the hell did some of the people find my blog?! ha! Crazy how those things work.

Weekly Roundup

If you want to send a letter to your dog, you can here.

Watch how dogs drink water. Pretty amazing and I never realized this is how they drink!

A man built a house in Thailand for $9,000. And it’s pretty awesome.

Denver news station puts a penis on the air. High much?

Gretchen explained to me what drinking watermelon means..

Weekly Roundup: TV and Other Extras

My bikini came in the mail on Friday! Unfortunately my T&A took one look at it and laughed. It will be sent back as you can definitely see my butt crack in the small bottoms and my boobs look like they might pop out of the top at any minute. I’ve never had to order a large top. WTF? Apparently Australian sizes are completely different than US. I showed Ashley the top and her response was “that is not a medium top!” It really does look like an XS.

This is how it should look, but doesn’t.

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I have a confession. I’m a sugar addict. My favorite food is cake. Recently I came across 25 reasons to stop eating sugar. The fact that it’s been linked to cancer alone makes me seriously rethink my intake.

Remember a few years ago when I dated S? Well, his sister Cassie is on a little show called Private Lives of Nashville Wives.

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Check out some clips of Cassie. This is not your typical trashy Housewives show. Cassie and Gary’s story is more about their adoption process (so far, they have only aired 2 episodes). I cannot say enough good things about them. They are two open and loving people. I remember when S told me that his sister was going to contact me on FB to get to know me shortly after he and I met. Once I finally met her we went to lunch and I had the best time just walking around getting to know her. She truly is an amazing person. Can I be related to her even though he and I broke up? ha  I don’t think you’ll find anyone with a bigger heart than Cassie.

Here is the extended opening.. If you check out the link above with her story, there are 3 videos on her page. They show a closet tour, a home tour, and what the ladies think of Cassie. I hate they didn’t show their library. They have an ahhhhmazing library slammed full of books in their home. I could live in that room alone for months.

I have been reading Chelsea’s blog since I started my first blog in 2009. She posted this on IG and I cracked up laughing.

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This post on 5 fattest foods girls love to eat  had me dying. Funny and very true!!

Remember when I posted about Theo and Beau? Check out her Freshpet Team Cuddle Finalists. ADORABLE!

That’s all I have for this week. It’s been a rough week for me. Say some prayers please! 🙂

WTF Facts

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Medium

To read my first post click here.
When Ashley and I went to the medium/psychic, I knew I would want to record what she said or have Ashley write it down. I knew I’d be in the moment and by the time I left I wouldn’t remember a lot of what she said, especially if I was focusing on one particular thing.
She started off with a prayer and then went right into it… She did most of the talking and she stated facts without asking a lot of questions. If she asked a question, she would press on before I could answer, and she was always correct. Here’s how it went..
Her: Are you moving?
Me: noooo..
Her: They are showing me marriage. They don’t usually push that this early in.. You will meet someone in 4-6 months, dark hair, about 5’10”, broad hands, strong, muscular arms. Possibly a wedding next fall? I see you holding hands. He has on a plaid button down shirt.
As far as your career…you feel like you have hit a dead end, want change. You are creative with many things.. clothes, furniture, people? Mental health field possibly…a counselor?  You must follow your dreams to reach your greatness. (Then she says that Ashley, who went first, and I are both very altruistic and parallel…like sisters, we’ve shared many lifetimes and roles together.) You would be good at writing, art therapy.
Her: Do friends come to you asking for relationship advice?
Me: yes.
Her: You give good advice don’t you?
Me: yes.
Her: Good, I don’t like when people try to act like they aren’t good at something. You’re more of a people person and sterile offices are not for you. You would be good working with abused children/women.
Her: Has someone close to you been abused?
Me: Yes..me.
Her: Okay, my guides told me it was you, but I didn’t want to make you feel uncomfortable. It happened in your childhood and you tend to judge yourself by this. It’s very powerful and makes you feel unworthy of being loved, you see it as your fault, but you were powerless. Your father is here. He loves you greatly and says he is sorry. This is actually a great blessing for you because it will lead you to your greatness. It will be your motivation to help others, and you will have an understanding of how they operate, see them through the therapy process. You have empathy for them.  This has set you up for your destiny.  You are sad for the child of your past, and sad for the adult you are now, but to reach your higher self work, you must forgive the perpetrator.  I want you to understand this, before we come to earth, we choose our parents… You needed someone to play the mother that looks the other way and the father that does the deed. It has caused a great disquiet.  The man that is back there, is your father.  He is pointing at himself saying he did it, he is crying and saying he is sorry. He is professional, good looking, sandy brown hair, kept himself up, nice hands, he is so sorry he couldn’t make it right with you before he died.  He feels guilty still.  He came to you recently in a dream.
Do you have a temper?  He came to you at work to keep you from losing your temper and he brought love to you at work. Your guides and angels are your team and they help you to work out your blueprint and keep you safe.  He was there in your office and he will be there for you.  You were saying “how was I able to calm down?”  It was because of him.  He brought angels with him. He was standing to your left because he wanted his hand near your heart. He had his hand on your shoulder.
The past is not an accident and because of it, you are a great listener but you shut yourself down so you don’t have to feel other’s pain.  You are an “empath” and feel like sometimes the pain that other’s feel is too hard to handle, but you need to give in to it. It is a great gift.
Your dad wants you to find peace with this.  She (the medium/psychic) can see me meditating, like with white lights, call in my team, also archangel Rapheal, candles, chakras, flower of lotus.  It is like a trap door…call him to you, tell him  you forgive him and you love him and thank him for what he has set up for you.
You will work with some horrific cases of abuse.  People benefit from forgiving others.  Your dad says you are a chip off the old block and he adores you.
I asked about the significance to number 32. I saw the number as a cloud on the way to his burial or funeral. Your dad is laughing, he said it is a puzzle.  She doesn’t get anything.  He tells her you are worried about him.  Sadness of grief, more at that time and you feel a lack of closure.  He says don’t worry we’ll both be ok and both will have peace. It is the combination of 3 and 2 into 5 or something.  Nothing stands out to her. Is it a date or and age or the 32nd something? March 2?  5 letters in word never.  5 words in phrase…you will never be alone.  Your adult life you have felt very alone.  You told him you want him to walk you down the aisle.  He will be at your wedding.  His spirit is very protective of you.  He says it (the number) is a date.

Me: Will I have kids?

Her: You are asking because you think that is what a woman “should” do.  You will be in a great relationship and it will be easy for you not to have kids if you don’t want to have them.  You will become so involved in your work and you don’t have a hard and fast contract to have kids.  You will get your fulfillment from work and won’t experience any regret about not having children, but you may wind up adopting…possibly an abused child.  Not a blood relation and you will bring them up in a right and better situation.  No strong need for you to have a child from your womb.  Don’t push yourself to have kids. Your ambivilence about children could be because you will adopt.

 

and that was that. everything that she said happened truly did. which blew me away. ..

The Break Up

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Over Christmas there wasn’t a lot on tv. One movie that I watched was The Break Up with Vince Vaughn and Jennifer Anniston. I was playing around on my Mac and half listening to the movie in the background. Towards the end one particular scene caught my eye….

 

Brooke: I just don’t know how we got here. Our entire relationship, I have gone above and beyond for you, for us. I’ve cooked, I’ve picked your shit up off the floor, I’ve laid your clothes out for you like you’re a four year old. I support you, I supported your work. If we ever had dinner or anything I did the plans, I take care of everything. And I just don’t feel like you appreciate any of it. I don’t feel you appreciate me. All I want is to know, is for you to show me that you care.

Gary: Why didn’t you just say that to me?

Brooke: I tried. I’ve tried.

Gary: Never like that, you might have said some things that meant to imply that, but I’m not a mind reader…

Brooke: It wouldn’t matter you are who you are. Just leave me alone ok? Right now, just shut my door.

 

Story. Of. My. Life. Holy balls. Also, this scene between Gary and his friend Johnny O.

 

Gary: I mean, what does she expect, for me to want to go [to the concert] with the girl who dumped me?
Johnny O: I don’t know. She probably just wanted you, you know, to show her the respect of not standing her up or some shit, who knows?
Gary:  Well, damn it. I should have just said no in the first place. I don’t know why I called…
Johnny O: You know what? It’s her fault she got hurt. You shouldn’t even feel bad about it. She should have expected it from you. You’re a fun guy, okay? Everybody likes you. You’re the quickest guy I know. Anytime we go out, I have a blast. All right? But, you know, everybody who knows you knows you’re gonna do what you want to do. And if it’s not what the other person wants to do, well, that’s their problem.
Gary: That’s bullshit.
Johnny O: It’s not bullshit.
Gary: There’s plenty of times I do shit that I don’t want to do. That’s ridiculous. No. Like when? That’s bullshit to say about me.
Johnny O: When have we ever done something you didn’t want to do?
Gary: You know, I don’t know, off the top of my head. I don’t keep score…
Johnny O: When’s the last time we went to a Sox game? The Sox. Not when they’re playing the Cubs, either. We always do what you want to do and she always did what you want to do. It’s who you are. Everybody thinks that you’re their friend, okay? But the fact of the matter is that there’s not one person that I know that you trust enough to let close enough that they could hurt you. And her big problem is that you really liked her. I mean, she is the one girl you really liked. And no matter what she did and how hard she tried, you were never gonna let your guard down. That poor girl never stood a chance.

My entire relationship with M is summed up in those two scenes. My life is sad. 😛

Personal

I hate when you know extremely personal things about someone, and you have to pretend that you don’t know them. AHHHHHHH!

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Deflated

That’s the perfect word to describe how I feel.

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In mid October Ashley went on a ghost tour on a date. She text me telling me that she saw a ghost. She asked the tour guide to describe the man she saw, and the guide described his height and the way his hands looked. Ashley saw a man with a hat on and long white fingers that moved, so when the guide mentioned that, she got a little freaked out. She asked the guide to describe the man because she wanted confirmation that what she saw was the ghost of this man.  When she told me the guide was a medium I told her I would defriend her if she didn’t get that lady’s information.

We each spent 45 minutes with her last night. I plan on doing a post going over the things she covered while talking to me, but that will be for another day. She brought up things dealing with my past and my dad. Things that there is no way she had any idea of knowing. I’ve always been a little skeptic of psychics and anything of that nature, but as she was reading me and talking to spirits, I found myself almost in tears because of the things she was telling me.

Last night was like going through years of therapy. I can vouch for that because I went through years of therapy when I was little. I am still trying to process everything she told me and make sense of it all. I felt a multitude of emotions. Each time I think of one specific thing she mentioned, I feel like I could burst into tears. I felt like that drying my hair this morning as I was getting ready for work, and three times throughout the day.

I am glad that I was able to have this experience. I think it will really help me in dealing with my dad’s death. Dealing with someone’s death is never an easy thing, especially when the relationship wasn’t exactly… easy. That’s the only word that I can think of to describe our relationship, and that’s not the word I want to use.. I think that a lot of people can’t even begin to grasp that understanding until they lose someone they care about. Something that I feel like my bosses have a hard time understanding actually…

I will post an update in a few days. Ashley took notes for me so that I wouldn’t miss anything if I was in the moment with her, and I did the same for her. I’m just waiting for her to type them up for me so that I don’t miss anything.

Wealth Inequality in America

Mind. Blown.

 

LBD

Jamie Alexander. You’ll remember that name after seeing these photos of her on the red carpet for Thor.

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If you thought that was something, this will blow you away. Guys reading, you’re welcome.

 

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To read what has been said on her look, click here.

 

 

Happy Halloween

 

 

Happy Birthday To My Other Half

My other half as in, the woman that is always there for me, even that one time when we didn’t talk for 2 years.  Oopsies.

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The woman that knows what I mean when I say “blood is not thicker than water”, because she has also been there, and doesn’t try to change my opinion.

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The woman that understands and listens to me when I talk about my childhood relationship with my dad. How he beat me was never the amazing father, how I always wanted that awesome father/daughter relationship, because her childhood was similar.

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The woman that understands what it feels like to walk in on your bf/fiance cheating on you, because it happened to her, a year earlier, in the same house.

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The woman that drove an hour to pick me up from said house, kicked her husband out of bed, and talked with me all night long and the next day because I called her in shock immediately after it happened.

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The woman that you know any man would be lucky if she picks him because she loves sex, loves football, and is a strong independent woman, just like you.

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The woman that you packed an entire house for because you knew she needed to move.

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The woman that you thought was intimidating when you first met her.

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The woman that you share every tiny detail with.

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The woman that is inspiring because she seems like she can do everything.

The woman that is inspiring because she tries to do everything.

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The woman that understands precisely what I mean when I say I hate my small town I’m from.

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The woman that drives you crazy because she over analyzes things just as much as you do.

The woman that is a replica of you, just 3 years older and brunette.

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The woman that has completely opposite taste in men from you.

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The woman that tells you “we will make a plan” when you are freaking out because you are questioning so many things in your present life.

The woman that will drive 3 hours to be with you at your dad’s visitation because she knows what it’s like to lose a parent, but can’t actually come because she caught pink eye. ha!

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The woman that will spend 9 hours with you, 6 of those in a car, helping you pack up your dad’s house.

The woman that will finish your sentences or say your thoughts out loud.

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The woman that you know you can say anything to and vice versa because you both have each others best interests at heart.

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The woman that knows what it’s like to have a crush on a co-worker.

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The woman that completely understands my relationship with M because she has been there before.

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The woman that Bentley feels comfortable around. If you know what a baby my dog is, this is huge.

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The woman that currently will get all of my retirement money if anything happens to me before I marry.

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The woman that will have a baby for me, if I decide to, because I don’t want to jack up my body and because I’m selfish.

The woman that understands how important it is to maintain yourself because she’s thinks so too.

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The woman that supports and encourages you even though she may not agree with you, because that’s just what friends do.

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The woman that I am lucky enough to call my best friend, which doesn’t seem to do justice to what she really means to me.

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